A dream of me in the dark, partially aslieep.. the face, mprphing.
From a Rat, to rabbit. a rabbit to a horse. structures, fliud, changing,
high cheekbones, to low. skinny face to fatter cheeks. circular, oval, higjly defined, to a lose sAGGY structure.
Dazed, possible fazed.
trying to think about the looks in reality from my imaginations.
**coming to a realisation about the inabilty to picture myself in physicality. real self? Not known. FUCk. that's scary. oh shit shit shIT. not KNOWING I am.
**A sudden realisation of other things that needs to worked on. The first part being the obsession of me, and the EGO. INFLATED. A pompous mtherfkR. in his fat, obese pompous walk, a monopoly man moustache, with a rotund kings appearance. Constant validation reqiured, proving the better, proving the Superiority. A child, devoid of love by his own disconnection. Unable to be a grown up despite growing older. living so deeply inside focussed within yourself tht the outer reflection is not known, heard, or seen. yOure blinded to the reality by living in your dreams.
**Devoid of emotions. as a child, acting as if you were a robot. Analytical, emotionless, precise. Kashmira ka Kashmira. this sepeareted, tore rather youself into the emotionless part and the dumb emotional part, and then entirely deleting the emoyional part. boom. all gone only the heartlewss one remains,.
fuck, i cant type coreectly. ooooooooof. okay so, this part now runs the hsow. the worthy soul needs to back to its original self. need to revert back
deeply feeling the nervers, and the sensations esspecially inside the spinal cord. the thin hairlike structures. cracking and having deep sensations while my mind is sending impulses to do so.
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